Neverending Stress

You ever have a period of time where it feels like nothing is going right and every day sucks? This obviously isn’t literally accurate to how my life has been, but it sure has felt like it.

Pointless social media drama which I had done so well at avoiding for so long! Politics, just in general! Routines being regularly disrupted! Plans and projects falling apart! Twitch announced just the other day that they suck now and they know everyone hates it and don’t care (It actually kinda sounds like Amazon forced them into it, but that doesn’t make it better)! HIVES! July and August so far have just kinda been nonstop stress.

I do have some good things coming up. I’ve been getting better (far from perfect) with my consistency at exercising. I finished Bell’s Hells and learned the Weird Kids podcast is finally available for free (albeit on a one year delay or so). I’m learning and enjoying 3D modeling which is surprising. My raid group got to have their first full meetup in a few weeks last night and we got a wing from Valigarmanda which was very nice.

One of the big things I am realizing (or rather that is continuing to stress me out) is the knowledge that I simply spend too much time in FFXIV. Which makes sense, it’s my primary social outlet, but I really need to cut back on it somehow. If I can do that, it’ll free up a ton of time for… literally everything else I enjoy doing. Right now my hope is that a few of my grinds finish soon (which it seems is fairly likely), as that will reduce the amount I am doing each week by quite a bit.

I have also once again reorganized my ADHD management tools. Mere days in and I can feel the effectiveness wearing off… why am I like this… oh right, ADHD. Ugh. At least I’m getting into the habits that the reorganized tools were menat to support? So in a sense they’re also becoming less needed? Maybe?

Yeah things are kinda unreasonably stressful right now and I hate it. Surviving, but only surviving! I do have some long term plans which, should they work out, would mean my life is going to change rather drastically in about a year’s time… but that is very far from certain.